Tuesday, August 18, 2009

DAY 19...19/30-Black Man.

In 2009,
Peace can’t be found plastered to his face
Honesty will never appear to dangle from the tips of his lips
And truth can never seep from his pores.
Because in 2009,
Nothing can fix his broken image.
Not the job he holds,
The types of degrees he’s earned
Or even the necks that stretch high so that lingering eyes are placed upon him
Can restore his image,
he is looked up to.
But nothing is legitimate, except stereotypes
When you are black man.

DAY 18...18/30-Rwanda

This Poem is close to my heart.
It has been 15 years since the genocide in Rwanda.
The whole world watched.
A lot of people died.
This poem is for them.
Because people have forgotten, but not ME.
_____________________________________________________

TEXT:

My fingers travel from
Head to chest
Shoulder to shoulder
For the 10,000 deaths that happen daily
400 every hour
7 every minute
while the whole world watched
The sun never stops gleaming on the pearl of Africa.
And though she kisses the continent awake with each dawning,
there is something
Different about this April.
This april
Something about the way her rays boldly blasting through satin curtains,
declaring her the fairest of them all
April has never been this beautiful.

Then comes the memories,
Of gaudy, bloodstained diamonds dangling like lynched bodies from the ears of rich, white women
As they place freshly picked daisies in the ponytails of their daughters
Believing that their sweet radiance will save them from karma.
Its sometime in April
Sometime in April when morning’s glory greets them at their doorsteps
And isn’t bother by the season’s rain
Its sometime in April
But this April was different
Like little girls who no longer sat by the river and waited for their chance to dance with Nile.
Instead their fingers frequently traveled
From head to chest
Shoulder to shoulder
Observing the 10,000 deaths that happened daily
400 every hour
7 every minute
while the whole world watched.

Blinded by the sun, that had stopped gleaming on the pearl of Africa.
Dance steps clinched feet to resemble Hutu chants
Pawa, Pawa
Pawa Pawa,
Burning soles fell hard on dusty roads
Legs sprinted away from the scent of soul’s burning in the hearts of villages
Red, yellow, and green strips left to mirror Hitler’s swastika 15 years later
And the thick stench of death still intrudes upon the senses
Caressing the morning’s air

This is for Rwanda
Gutted and filleted like a fish to feed the corporate greed
Of those who want what Africa has, without asking for it
This is for every carcass still left rotting in Murambi
For the mamas in hastily tied lappas,
With emptiness in their bellies, clinging babies on their backs,
While trying to race with the bullets of men who nurse AKS in their palms
For the children forced to protect other children against faces familiar enough to be family,
For those who turned down the audio on their video, as soon as they saw the faces were black. This is for Bill Clinton, who sat home playing his saxophone to the tune of
10,000 deaths per day
400 every hour
7 every minute
While the whole world watched.
This is for the men gone mad,
For the masquerade of them who were force to forget that behind their Hutu masks originally lied a Tutsi
Men who kicked their ancestors to the curb, so they could trash the vaginas
Of African women with impunity, and stomp black babies ridiculously,
While pale puppeteers laugh hideously,
At the holocaust they designed, deliberately.

15 years later and the everlasting flame still burns for you
Never calling you the unknown because I know who you were
We remember you
We remember them
the 10,000 who died dailly
400 every hour
7 every minute
While the whole world watched

Until they grew bored and changed the channel.

VIDEO:

Thursday, August 13, 2009

DAY 17...17/30-Rocky.

Rocky,
Yes, You are Bi-polar.
Stop barking at me.
You know who I am.

-Bee

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

DAY 16...16/30-DC to Philly

I left DC
Grimey, yet still beautful after all that she has seen.
Only to meet him.
Just as grimey,
And just as beauitful as my own.
Realizing that I've been walking in circles.
Never really leaving the only place that I have ever known.
I knew it all looked the same for a reason.
My heart carries me home
Reminding me never to forget the place
that took me in like a motherless child
and nursed my poetry to adulthood.
I will never abandon
She.
Will only be a bus ride away.
And I will forever call her home.

DAY 15...15/30-Sims


You stand at a staggering 6'10
Your head literally dancing with the clouds
And after sunset
Your eyes mingle with stars
Reflecting that of the moon in your soul.
I see much through your eyes.
Foreseeing the day that they call you an NBA legend
Dropping doubles with no questions asks
Retired number and all
Your jersey
Hanging in a picture frame
Large enough to the fit the World's Family
Next to the Jordans, Erwings, and Worthys
Sits you..Sims

But in the moment that we speak
You are a star of your own.
With 30 plastered to your back
You must remember to make it more than a number that fans know you by.
Because in the number will live your legacy.
The legacy that began at the touch of basketball
When feet first found love with the court
Before the day you ever knew that you would be able to place your hand on cloud 9.
The day before you ever dreamt of being a Hoya.
That Navy Blue and Grey would bestow a sense of pride
Huddled humbly to your hands and gracing that of your teammates.
Deeming them newfound brothers.

And with that
I see a newfound friendship
With one willing to be seen with a star like me.
I hope you didn’t convince yourself of sole stardom
Because yes I am a star like you.
Writing poems for those who have no voice
And strengthen those with one
Our feet bring us joy
Learned an 8-count
While you were learning lay ups and crossovers
Crossing over into a time when boredom took control of your mind
Leading you to me.
Now we text message all day.
Looking for the intended in the discreet .
The only time when 5'5 can stare into the eyes of 6'10
Knowing your exact thought
At that exact time.
Resembling that of the constellations.
Something that is only known to stars.
Stars like US

Monday, August 10, 2009

DAY 14...14/30-CuzMameSay.

Obedient boy
Mama's third Emir
Professed loyalty to her since the day you left her womb
Only to meet her eyes
Resembleming that of your own.
The same eyes that would forever guide you on your path of life.
Your answer to life was always "CuzMameSay"

Age 3
You would never move from the spot that mama left you in.
Never easily persuaded like your older brothers.
Even when they tried to bribe you with food
You would simply say "No"
And when asked why you would say "CuzMameSay dont move"
Remembering that she would never let you go hungry in this world.

Age 15
When the neighborhood kids tried to get you to smoke a joint
Your mind would race back to image of Mama's disappointed face
And you would simply say "No"
Never asking you why because that meant a little more of weed for them.
But you always answered why to yourself
"CuzMameSay smoking was never allowed in her house"
And real men would never put anything to their lips
That would release a little bit of their soul when they exhaled.

At age 20
Whe teammates tried to convince you that taking steroids would be the only way you would make it to the League.
You simply answered "No"
This time reintroducing the "CuzMameSay" in you.
Believing that all things happen for a reason.

You have never stopped believing in Mommy
And at age 28 she still guides your earthly path.
You are one of the few men that she knows
Still looking up to her
Even as you now
tower over her.
All 6'4 of you is still a mama's boy at heart;
She knows you as her "CuzMameSay" Boy.

DAY 13...13/30-I Love.

I LOVE:

Mommy
Roland
Stefan
Chris
Al
Beautiful People
Black Men
Toni Morrison
Children
MD
DC
Philly
When he calls just to tell me he was thinking about me.
Our love
His understanding
When people read my poetry and appreciate it for what it is.
A good 8-count.
A good book.
When I find a nice pair of earrings at the thift store.
When I see a beautiful black family.
New clothes
When I get first dipps on anything.
Birthday Cake Remix from Cold Stones.
Writing Poetry
Caressing my hair after I just got it done.
When I have money in my account.
When my mother transfers money into my account.
When my brother transfers money into my account.
When my other brother transfers money into my account.
When my mother tells me stories about her youthful days in Switzerland.
The feeling of being drunk (not the process though.)
Being humble.
Meeting humble people.
My Poetry
Other people's poetry.
Performing.
Biting my nails.
Walking with my eyes closed.
Who I am.
Who I am growing to be.
Who I have been.
What I will become.
Suzan
Naya
Amina
Talisa
Carla
Ant.
Murk
Safia
Ade
My past
My present
My future.

Friday, August 7, 2009

DAY 12...12/30-I Hate.

I HATE:

Ugly people.
Pimples
Toes
Guts
Love.
When people put the orange juice by in the refrigerator when they know there is nothing, but a drop left.
When people leave the toilet seat up.
When people are rude for no apparent reason.
When people lie for no apparent reason.
When people get mad for no apparent reason.
All the DC students who have no summer jobs and apparently no summer assignments, so they just chill in Gallery Place ALL DAY and stand outside the McDonald’s until they get board and move to the Chipotle.
All the Montgomery County students who have no summer jobs and apparently no summer assignments, so they just chill in Downtown Silver Spring ALL DAY and stand outside the movie theater until they get board and move to the Chipotle.
When people say “Let me call you right back” and never call back.
When people say "Chill moe"..(fuck is a moe?)
When my mother takes me places and introduces me to 100 people and I have to plaster this false smile on my face that begins to hurt after a while.
When Richard wakes me up in the morning to ask me for cereal when there are like a million and one people in that house that he has to pass before he reaches me.
When Thomas brutally jumps on my back; claiming to be an alarm clock.
People who can’t drive.
People who hate themselves which leads to hating other people.
Ignorant people.
Wet Jays.
Fishnet anything.
Harry Potter (1-86387237. )
American Idols (seasons 1-873487483)
Africans who think they are Americans. (all over the world)
When people give me the 419!
Boys who think they are men.
Ugly people.
Pimples
Toes
Guts
Love.

Thursday, August 6, 2009

DAY 11...11/30-Rated NC-17


Please Excuse me for the interruption, but
BREAKING NEWS!!

I'm not the one to be mean, but...

You make me sick...
You don't know how to treat children
Teach children
Or take care of children
And then you try to call yourself a mother

DAMN how that word is use so loosely these days
Like your morals
And like your legs..
Slitted out more kids than all the vaginas in all the abortion clinics around America
Godly you are;
MY ASS
Hasn't anyone informed you that going to church every Saturday doesn't really make you a Christian?
Guess they forgot to teach you that in Sabbath School.
Mama raised me to respect all
But to be disrespected by none.
You definitely need to learn this.
Because you crossed the line with me.

And yes

YOU too make me sick.
Who are you to judge me.
When you were 18 you had 72,619 kids already.
How many do I have..0 and aint counting..
Loose values have never crossed my mind
Because mama raised me right
Raised me to believe that love is an understanding between two human beings.
Love isn't lust
Maybe she should have raised you too.
Wouldn't have 6 kids by 7 different men. (I didn't even know that was possible..lol)

And yes yes
You Too
(well really three)
Make me sick.
Hold my stomach with my hand
And my head over the toilet.
In preparation of how sick you make me.
What's up with all these
"Godly" people
With disappointing past,
But even more disappointing futures.
Why are YOU talking about anybody?
You found your present husband on the arm of a women you called your bestfriend/sister.
A women who named you the god-mother of her daughter.
A women who took you in when no one else wanted to.
You think running away is cool huh..
Naw shit just catches up to you.
Mama should have helped you with this earlier in your life
When yall were growing up
Because I know she understood this.
You can't run away from life..
It's like the moon at night..
It follows you where ever you might be.

TO HER, HER & HER
Please do the world a favor
And let your voice simmer down to a murmur.
You
Nor
You
Nor
You
Are not worthy enough to speak!
Consider this the last respect you get from me
Because if I hear my name in your mouth again
I will personally come and rip the voice boxes out of your throats.

Whooow!. that felt so damn good!
Now back to your regularly schedule program!

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

DAY 10...10/30-The Rebirth



Roland N. Dunbar
Stefan G. Dunbar
Christian S. Dunbar
Al W. Glay

The Atlantic has deceive us brutally
And the constant feeling of reuniting
Is starting to take an unwanted toll on me
But it is for Mama’s sake that you left me
Four princes settling to make ends meet
At the cost of missing the only girl they have ever called their Princess.
Not a day goes by where my mind doesn’t cross the paths of wondering about
You,
You,
You,
You.
I still miss you.

Emmanuel J. King
Charles B. Daniels
Richard E. Williams
Thomas I. Brown

The Atlantic has been good to me
The constant feeling of love and happiness has resided with me since our meeting
Taking the presence that I missed in my brothers and
Transferring it into
You,
You ,
You ,
You
Who are my nephews,
Have blessed me.
Temporarily replacing the empty spaces
Left unfilled by the men that I will forever call my Kings.
And I thank you for this.
Though you may not understand a word of this poem
I still feel the need to thank you.
You are the rebirth of the spirits of my brothers.
It is like he heard my cries late into the night
When I thought the world was sleeping.
And immediately sent you to me.
All four of you.
Your innocence constantly distracts the ache in my heart
That will one day be cured with the reuniting of my brothers and I.
A gift it would be to see them on a daily,
Like the good ol’ days….
Damn, how I miss them.

DAY 9...9/30-Tattoo

The sensation should be too much for one to handle,
But you sit there.
Proud smile plaster on your face
And I can't translate your eyes
Because of those golden curls scatter in front
But your cheek bones remind me of your smile
Running parallel
Hold your crown high and let it illuminate in the sun;
Becoming as lovely as mother earth was
when she made you as refined as you are.
She now rests with you
Embedded the words:
"Mankind started with you despite the myths. Deeming you mother and me queen. You will forever be mine, no matter what ocean seperates us."
in her given shape.
Take peace with you
Because I believe that they have forgotten about it.
I don't think you understand what you now hold with you.
Its our mother
Mother Africa....

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

DAY 8...8/30-East to West

Her name is Suzan
&
The homely glow that takes to her face is peaceful
Resembling that of the East.
Ethiopia;
Its beauty reflects the same sacred feeling
Of those most proud when spotting their
Coates of Arms place on solid blue
Centered across green, yellow and red strips.
Blessings have been placed upon her
She is a decent; taking to the east side of Our dear mother.
And calling it home
Residing heavy on tongue her native has never left her
Despite the grasp America has tried to hold
She has never let her culture slip through lost cracks
Or has been influenced by the lost souls.
It has stayed with.


Her name is Nana-Yaa
&
The homely glow that takes to her face is peaceful as well
Resembling that of the West.
Ghana;
Its beauty reflects the same sacred feeling
Of those most proud when spotting their
Single Star
Centered across red, yellow and green strips.
Blessings have been placed upon her
She is a decent; taking to the west side of Our dear mother.
And calling it home
Residing heavy on tongue her native has never left her
Despite the grasp American has tried to hold
She has never let culture slip through lost cracks
Or has been influenced by the lost souls.




They share the same story
The same struggle
Placing themselves between times
That extend from way back like
To back then when
being African reflected that of one of the seven sins
To present; now
When being cultured is real cool.
To back then when
They wanted nothing to do with Africa
To present; now
Where spending their last cash on Dashikis from Urban Outfitters means they're trying to reconnect with their lost mother
Blessed be to those
Like Suzan and Nana-Yaa
Who followed the paved path by
Eager minds never wanting to lose themselves
On foreign soil.
Though it is to easy for them to forget where they are orginally from
But they are steady digging
fighting frantically to keeps their roots visible.
Because she is forever resting with them
No matter what ocean separates her.

Monday, August 3, 2009

DAY 7...7/30-Letters to You

Mikey,

Its been a year since a tainted eye has fallen on you,
Peacefully;
But they celebrated for you today
Like you had just drifted away from life
Ready to reappear anytime.
It hasn't been easy
Many eyelids left opened to allow the breeze to caress their burning irises.
Placed many souls in the hands of those worthy enough to trust
In hopes that your spirit will forever follow them.
&
They reintroduced themselves today,
The ceased tears that everyone had forgotten about
Rolled down their cheeks with necks stretched high.
Apprehensive stares wondering if you,
Michael Francis Taylor
Will ever reappear.
But only the clouds will tell
In time; before sunset
And after darkness,
They will carry your message through constellations
pinpointing every star.
Reflecting that of you in the water.
Always resting by the soul of the earth.
Forever you will stay with them.

Keep Watching...They Still Need You...
___________________________________
Uncle Jenkins,

I have learned how to love you through mama's memories
And Aunty Mina's heart
Both still see you through Jenkins,
Naylor acquired your wits
And Korto is still your "Sweet Pea"
She misses your smile that came with every morning.

Blissful timing
Will help with healing
Keep watch over us
and Roland too,
He misses you dearly.
Cried like a baby before he broke the news to mama.
As for those theives,
They are promise their own fate.

Love,
BD

Saturday, August 1, 2009

DAY 6...6/30-Not Yet

Day 6 still isnt finished...im working on it though. be patience please.